Mood/activities/thoughts: (night) Had a good time with my friend today. Just chilled, talked, went to sit on the grass at a park, and I did a tarot reading for her. Earlier I worked twice, and tried to schedule my kids for the school year in between. I hope to get that done tomorrow after work in the morning. Also want to make a few candles. (hour later) OOOPS went to get my packages. Got mom some new bras and dad a shock toy lol. and got my candle oils yay 🙂
Feeling a bit up and down as usual. I need more healing for sure, I just wish there was understanding for how confronting issues and healing is actually better long-term for our future. But alas, I can’t force someone to have the strength and determination that I give. Not everyone is the same. I guess I just wish that my person could be strong enough to heal for an improved, healthy future too..just pure trust and respectful actions no matter the situation/stress/challenge.

Tarot Card: Ace of Swords, upright

Notes from card: success, breakthrough, mentally clear, new way of thinking, smart, communication skills, mental power,*road ahead may have challenges!, go look for the truth…stand up for self and others, being clear on the situation, and will fight for it…ready to take on challenges, wanting to use intellect, will you be selfish or use it to benefit others?

Reflection: I have been pretty doubtful although optimistic overall. I know clearly I have healing to do (who wouldn’t when hurtful actions are continuously done) so that I can stand up on my two feet again without negatively spiraling downward. I am seeking truth and only truth will set me free. I am tired of being lied to and a lack of openness. I’m ready to take on whatever comes my way definitely, but maybe just not wanting for another wave of sadness. I just want to move forward with health, love, happiness and free myself from the pain, but of course that takes time and effort.