Mood/activities/thoughts: (night) almost midnight again. Oops. Got carried away with furniture window shopping and dreaming of moving out into my own place. I don’t think it’s the most feasible right now, but I bet it would really get me even more independent..
I called all the parents today for speech therapy. 9 didn’t respond, 2 no longer attend the school. I’ll recall tomorrow the ones who didn’t pick up and start scheduling as well. Worked with all three tutoring kids today otherwise. And looked into reusable masks for a long while. Left me with barely any time to do my hobbies! A bit disappointed about that part. Hoping to get a full day of hobbies in tomorrow (along with phone calls, etc). I’m also super excited to get my little organizer for my tarot cards!!:) Feeling more than disappointed with my lack of exercise for about 5 days now! ugh I need to do more and stop slacking. I’ve also been nauseous from eating out during the weekend, hoping I can really clear my bowels, by eating less tomorrow so it doesn’t just add on and make me bloated and tired. Also feeling a bit confused for the future if things change in terms of living/work.
Tarot Card: Knight of Wands, reversed

Notes on card:have a great idea but still hasn’t taken off, enjoy the pursuit of love, not the steadiness that comes afterward, impatience, instability, noncommittal, wasting money, large purchases, gambling, not careful with finances, mindless spending, want everything to be ‘fixed’ right away, need to take time to know what’s best for you

Reflection: I am feeling a little impatient with myself and my progress. I should have completed all the cards including major arcana by now and starting youtube. Unfortunately I still have queens and kings, and then the major arcana. I’m hoping to do both queens and kings (8 cards) tomorrow. The major arcana will be important to really read through in a book before I write it all down I think. So I’ll probably do that intense reading after taking notes on all queens and kings. That should help me feel more productive. I think it does resonate especially in the great idea but not taking off yet. Everything is still a dream, and I’m trying to manifest it asap. I have the tools, I just need more knowledge so I can be confident. I am also admittedly wasting quite a lot of money…in terms of things that I love and need for hobbies (oils, organizers, tarot books and cards, bike stuff, candles from aliexpress, bowls, etc). I need to budget. At the same time, I feel I need to cherish life and spend on what truly will move me forward and I think these do, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Hoping to do more tomorrow. Hoping I can also heal more, and continue on my journey and not become too impatient with others who are figuring out their lives as well. Goodnight!