Mood/thoughts/activities: (Night) Started to feel a little less stable, a little more in need of reassurance. I can feel myself wanting to tell people to give me things/ telling them what I’d like, but I become more insecure and less myself that way. Still motivated to continue working on my website tonight. I’ve pretty much put something on every page except for the speech therapy resources page. I want to make videos/upload free resources there. I feel like I need to do more reading of tarot.

Tarot: six of swords, reversed (jumped out)

Notes on card: personal transition to remove the bad, knowing something needs to be released, unfinished business, resisting moving on from something for more peaceful ending, fooling self that you can put up with something, lessons still need to be learned before you can move forward, you need to resolve what’s holding you back from moving on to align with your values, a need to leave the past behind

Reflection: I’m going through personal growth for sure as I make myself promises to work on my tarot journey, career, and website, but in other areas, I’m still unable to fully let go of past hurt. I think that’s why I was feeling insecure and in need of some validation. When I’m happy I tell myself I can overcome anything or handle it, but alone with my thoughts, the fears return and hold me back. I try to voice myself but I still need to learn why I’m fearful of letting it go. Is it fear of losing my morals, the companionship, fun times, part of my life shared, or the resulting isolation?