mood/activities/thoughts: (night into next day) I know I’m posting late but I got caught up in looking for folding bikes after realizing how amazing they really are and seeing both my friends having had theirs for so many years. I spent probably 4 hours just now doing that hahaha. I don’t regret it, because I ended up getting one I truly love and can’t wait to get in a couple of days!! Well, you must be wondering why I even looked into it again after the $15 craigslist bikes I used to get. Well, it’s because that $15 said craigslist bike died on me today while I was going to a park with my friends. They were already ahead of me, as I felt like I had to push so hard to get moving. Then I was more aware–it’s probably the tires. It soon went fully flat on me, and then even popped out of the rim HAHAHAHA, I wasn’t surprised or upset honestly. Just a bit sorry to my friends that they didn’t get to bike to the park. So they went back to the car then drove over to get me. While stranded with a useless bike, I just knew I had to get a new one–folding one to be specific. When they got here, I took off everything from the bike and threw the bike on a rack that already had a bike locked there. Someone might end up wanting it and changing the tires sooo ya welcome ;). Anyway, when we got to the park, one of my friends let me borrow her bike while she rollerbladed and my other friend biked as well. What a huge and beautiful park (Cunningham Park). We got some good exercise, got to go through a dark twiggy tunnel, and also took some photos and videos while we were at it. Time well spent with lovely friends, and I remember now why I wanted a bike so bad that I went to get one for $15 off craigslist at 9 PM one night after grad school classes in a shady stranger’s garage (about 2 years ago). And to find out it wasn’t even her bike. I cringe at some of my past choices (don’t kill me mom) but still proud of myself for lugging that heavy 26″ mountain bike up multiple subway stairs and into subway cars and back home in the dark. Anyway, moving on from the past, good news! I got home and went right to work with research on folding bikes. I finally decided on a beautiful hunter green Zizzo Forte. Not only can it carry 300 lbs, it is only 28-29 lbs itself! I’m so excited, especially since it was free shipping and will be here in a few days!! Talk about overwhelming excitement. It’s currently 12:20 AM the next day and I’m just feeling way too excited and awake! Oh well:) Everything just seems lighter and more manageable when I remember the things I love and enjoy in life, and treat myself the best I can. That is something no one can take away from me. Other things will still get to me, but I hope I can try to see the brighter side and let things go to have peace of mind, as sometimes fighting for something may be fighting for nothing but hurt toward yourself.

Tarot Card: Five of Wands, upright

Notes on card: conflict, tension, everyone trying to be heard, no compromise bc different opinions, enthusiastic approach to change, deal with change positively and constructively, everyone has ideas but isn’t manifesting them, you may need to create a strategy that’s feasible for all to get on the same page. see it as an opportunity to rise above the chaos and disorder, take a moment to listen to others even if you agree to disagree

Reflection: completely resonates. There’s been continuous conflict and tension, but nothing seems to be working out for the better because of the difference in opinion about a situation. I am feeling more enthusiastic about change and not holding onto the sadness however, although I do still believe in what I’ve stated. I just need to see that the strategy I’ve been using may not be very productive for me or anyone else. I think. I’m not sure how much this can relate to my happiness of getting a bike though 😉 but the emotional bits–it really does relate.