Mood/activities/thoughts: (night) Just worked once with a kid today. Then hobbies and shopping haha. Did a small workout (need to do more later before bed). I am so excited because I treated myself today and bought a tarot spreads book and new tarot deck!! The book and tarot deck are written by the same person–Sasha Graham. Just from a short excerpt I saw on her Dark Wood Tarot, I knew I had to get this book. The type of healing and light/dark aspects she writes about are exactly the type of stuff I want to inspire/help others with when I create videos. I know I will cherish the card deck a lot too, Abigail Larson’s artwork looks amazing! Very different vibe to it than others than I have. I’ll show some cards when I get it Sunday! The 365 Tarot Spreads book I will receive tomorrow YAY! I’m just so eager to see what kind of new spreads I can learn and incorporate into my readings for myself and others. Other than this, I also got my speech bubble led light board!! Here’s a pic of it with my set up:

I spoke with my supervisor earlier as well, and she was so supportive. I think I will start scheduling kids Sunday or Monday, after I get the parents numbers together, and my other duties. The school will probably update us on Monday anyway.

I keep dreaming of having my own room to do tarot. I want a slightly bigger table where I can fit my fluffy mat and all my crystals and little candles and decor. Just need to keep learning tarot at a faster pace (I’ve been slacking ALL week on the knights cards , sigh) and get to reading more for others and myself, using more than one card. I think having the spreads book and my other tarot card meanings book will help me!

Emotionally, I’ve been up and down, all around, confused and conflicted. All I really know is I do have healing to do, and that I still love him. I don’t want to rush this time around, because I know for a fact I will lose it easier than before, due to all the pain piled up. I know I tend to go heart in first, but for once, I feel that logic and thinking practically will be helpful in the long run. If it’s meant to be, it will be here and improve, better than ever. Right now, I hope to regain my love for myself, and not forget my hobbies no matter what happens because it makes me happy. I feel tarot gives me peace and a sense of self for sure. . I’m honestly so glad I came across it last year. It’s been a great journey getting into it and now truly focusing on it. For once in my life, I am committing to a hobby for more than a week at a time. I’m pleased and hope to continue being consistent as I’ve always wanted but never could do in the past. Oh , and candles! I have easily made a bunch of them this month too. I also have to keep exercising; I’ve gone down to 104 lbs and unfortunately, I went for snacking again these two days, which makes me feel bleh after, so I need to stop!

Tarot Card: Ten of Cups, upright

Notes on card: end of difficulties, spending time with loved ones, following your heart and intuition, sense of alignment, completion, wholeness,  inner guidance to lead, align with your true personal values, long term stability, peace and comfort, energy coming back health wise

Reflection: I am letting my inner voice guide me toward the right path. That path is focusing on my hobbies so I can feel fulfilled and actually learn more about Tarot and become a reader. I have never bought books to the extent I have now with Tarot–it says a lot about how serious I am about this. I didn’t even have this passion in some courses from my college career..somehow doing something with your life outside of being forced to is such an amazing feeling! I wouldn’t say it’s the end of challenging times, and I can see more coming in the future, but I feel I have a better grasp of how to deal with them. I just need to not lose myself, and remember to align everything towards what I truly value, and not stray from those values based on love. I know following my intuition now is good for success in my career, hobbies, and inner peace. Hopefully I can keep growing with more learning.