Mood/activities/thoughts: (afternoon/evening) Just tutored three kids from morning til now. It’s good to keep busy I suppose. Although, I really would’ve liked to enjoy the outdoors for this final week. It’s okay, I need to focus on hobbies and my career anyway. Took some breaks in between my jobs to buy stuff on aliexpress haha, one item of which will be used for my tarot readings, one for dad’s haircuts, and one for my stones. I’m excited. Currently feel a bit nauseous, not sure what’s going on, but barely feel appetite sometimes, while other times I just want to stuff myself so I can fall asleep. Have to write notes still, then talk to parents tomorrow and Friday to prepare the start of the school year next week. Feeling like things will definitely change, but probably a necessary change. I know I have to stop waiting for what I want, and just focus on myself without losing myself. Still want to move out though so I could focus on my hobbies/work.

Tarot Card: Queen of Swords, upright

Notes on card: making judgments without relying only on emotion, loving and loyal underneath, but very careful who she chooses to have around her, avoids grand romantic displays, not easily letting down guard, need to have patience if dealing with someone like this, time of looking for both independence and self-sufficiency, value space and identity, making adjustments to allow clarity and boundaries, respected, wise, honest, a source of constructive criticism, strong sense of empathy combined with effective communication, financially need to act with consideration, logic and wisdom, if asked for help–look at things fairly from both viewpoints

Reflection: I feel like this could represent my mindset right now. I am trying to focus more on logic, and less on emotion as I have been for the past huge portion of my adult years. I’ve always let emotion guide me, and I realize it doesn’t always bring the best results for me at least. I feel like many others need to focus more on their emotion, but it isn’t ideal for me anymore. I tend to distort reality and forget my worth when I solely use emotional judgment. I think at this time, if I want to better myself, and move forward with my career, I need to improve my logic and focus on intellect over emotions. I am able to empathize and feel others’ emotions quite easily, but it’s time I get to know and use my logic as well to advance my skills in social and work situations. The space allows me to really channel my identity and what I want in life, and therefore gain clarity on how to manifest it. I am tired of immaturity, and want to make a healthier future happen. I’m looking forward to this change 🙂