Mood/activities/thoughts: (afternoon) Looks pretty gloomy out, which aligns with my overall mood. Got one more job then I might head out to see a friend as she’s going away to study soon :(.
(Night) Back home! Had a great time with friend, going to miss her. We walked around and then sat down to eat our food and drink bbtea outside. Anyway, went home and got my fake bonsai tree for about 3 bucks? I think it’d be cute in videos as a decoration lol. Feeling a bit unsure about certain aspects of life and what’s to come, but also more clear on what it is I need and want so that resentment doesn’t creep in and cause harm. What I do know is that forcing anything means that there is a negative attachment involved, and giving space to let truth reveal itself is healthiest. It’s best to know who you are and stay true to yourself, without letting anything get in the way of that.

Tarot Card: Eight of Cups, reversed

Notes on card:stagnation, monotony, accepting less, avoidance, fear of change, staying in bad situation, need to leave your partnership, but there is something that holds you back, work out whether the desire to leave comes from the relationship truly reaching its end, or whether it is still salvageable, career:can choose to either accept a role that offers you no emotional reward, creative outlet, or opportunity for growth, or make the necessary changes to look elsewhere, fear of abandonment, lack of emotional maturity, faking happiness, low self-esteem

Reflection: I guess pretty self explanatory. I am not fulfilled with just my day job, nor am I fully satisfied with all aspects of my life now. I may be afraid of being abandoned or moving away from something I’ve tried so hard to build, but I need to accept that eventually when I realize it does not offer me fulfillment towards my needs and wants. I always give others and situations the benefit of the doubt, or many chances to work out, but maybe by doing that I am just lowering my standards and in return my self-esteem for what I’m able to offer. I hope to grow up and stand up for myself and what it is I truly want and should accept.