Mood/activities/thoughts: (Evening) Today has been quite productive. I worked out, wrote all my July notes for work and uploaded them, showered, and now I can have some time to do Tarot. I’m also super excited still to get my bike and put everything on it and bring it out for rides. I’m feeling okay today, but part of me inside still feels uneasy about a lot of things. For example, where are things going to go (job, hobbies, connections), how will problems be fixed, should I allow my energy into specific situations, etc. Just a lot of thinking, that I just want to stop it all to work on Tarot and move forward with it. I got a clip on microphone as well, in case I need that for my videos in the future (used with phone or camera). Overall, I’m pretty focused on bettering myself and making the most of every day, no matter how I feel. I recognize that my moods can go up and down easily, based on my nights (dreams) and just random little things, but it is up to me either way to react in the way that most serves my highest self. To have shit happen to you is normal, but how you respond is what’s most important and something I think we all need to be aware of. That is what I’m trying to work on now, to make sure who I know myself to be and say I am is who I actually am. Actions will always speak louder than words in the end. I can’t let things get me down to the point where I don’t take care of myself and those I love.

Tarot Card: Seven of Swords, upright

Notes on card: lies, strategy, sneakiness, getting away with something, neglected a situation or feeling and just got on with life in hopes that it would resolve itself so you don’t have to deal with it–but it grew and got worse, does escaping help anything?, you have been cornered, willingness to go solo, lie to spare feelings if root not addressed, beware of who you trust

Reflection: At first, I thought hmm wow these cards are not very true these days. Then I searched a little more for more possible meanings and it started to resonate with me. The “escaping from lies” is basically me escaping from my innermost pain and pretending everything is okay to spare the pain from existing too painfully..if that makes sense. However, I have been recently facing it more- what the roots are, and how I can learn and grow from them or resolve them so I don’t get hurt again. I need to do this more on my own, but also of course communicate with others so they understand clearly how they have been involved and affecting me. I do think it’s very important to recognize who is trustworthy, and who is there just to reap what you work hard on. Remember those who were there during your lows. They know a lot more about pain than anyone who’s around only when you’re happy.